Choosing To Be Happy

I have figured what has been bothering me and I am still not fully myself, but I am better. Thanks to Momma Foster for being there and just telling me that everything would be fine. Thanks to Trina Lee for listening to me and offering me advice. Thanks to Courtney Bradley for offering a firm and true advice to help me. And thanks to Elder Wirthland for his talk that spoke volumes to me. I am doing better there are places I wish I could have been, People I wish I could have seen, and events I wish I could have been at in support. This saddens me but I am making it through. I will be ok.

What is wrong with me

i have been in a slump the last few days. it is hard to explain what exactly is the problem but i wish i could fall off the map for a little while and not be so overly dramatic about this. i know i am just going through trials right now but the horizon is so far off. and i cannot talk to the one other person who could help.

JOEY IS SUPER STOKED

Today I took my Road Test and I past with only 14 wrong. I am now a Licensed Driver! WOOOOOT

Clear Skies

Today I am having a much better day. The Bishop and Brother Barret gave me a blessing and while it only reiterated things I know will come to fruition it helped a lot. I am blessed by the calm that is within my soul right now and thank Heavenly Father for his Holy spirit. For those of you who have been praying for me thank you for you help and support in this trying time for me.

Clearing My Head

The last 3 days I have spent in prayer and trying to understand things that are not in my control. With each day things are starting to look up. It has been a hard couple of weeks and I wish that I knew the outcome, but I know that my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and no mater what this trial will strengthen me. Though this road is tough right now I will praise Him in this storm and continue to stay close to him in prayer.

GRRRRAAAAWWW

It has been a long week and I am trying to get through to Sunday. I need some Relaxation!

Poem

Sometimes
by
Joseph cichon

Sometimes I feel ten feet tall.
Sometimes I want to disappear and hide.
Sometimes I am as strong as steel.
Sometimes a harsh look from you can melt me like ice.
Sometimes I know exactly where I am going.
and Sometimes I am lost in the crowd.
Sometimes I know who I am.
and sometimes I don't even want to be me.
And Always Like Now I feel loved by my Heavenly father Who loves me for who I am.

Here is me with Sister Hamblin and our new Sister, Sister Bryner

This is one of my favorite Pictures. It is so hard to believe that it has almost been a year. From left to right Sara, Jeani, Char, Me, and Brother Ramsell. You three girls mean the world to me. Each of you have touched and changed my life so much it is hard to explain. And Brother Ramsell you are the first impression I have had at what a worthy and trully faithfull Priesthood holder is. I will never forget this day, I miss you three so much and often wish I could see you all for just a momment.

HMMMMMMM

For the last few weeks or so everything has been going pretty good, but there is one aspect right now that i do not understand what i am doing wrong. i have faith that my Lord and Savior will work it all out, and i have hope in his plan. i only wish i could see when it will all play out so i ask all of you to pray for me in this. i may be all smiles and such cause i am choosing Happiness, and i am choosing to Praise God in this storm, but please pray that i receive the guidance that i need.

Poem

At the edge of the water
by Joseph Cichon

I sit in that chair as the man in the suit and name tag ask me questions.
Questions I know the answers to but do i want to say them out loud.
i then am faced with the decision of telling my family with the knowledge that they do not approve.
so starts the service on a cold January afternoon, surrounded by people who love me, surrounded by those who approve of my decision.
i stand there at the edge of the water and i see my past floating before me.
all the hate, all the lies, all the time wasted and as i slowly take one foot down each step i feel the warmth of the water against my skin like the arms of God himself.
i hear the words that are spoken and as i enter the water an come out again i see the past no more.
i see only the future and i feel the love of my true Heavenly Father.

YSA Dance

So yesterday was the YSA dance it was not as bad as i thought it would be. the people were really kool and they played some decent music. the talks given at the fireside were fantastic. the food was great they really out did themselves. i danced a few slow songs and after a little persuaision i danced a few of the group dances. all in all a great event i look forward to the next event watever and whenever it is.

"Had a Bad Day Again"

I had a pretty crappy day at work today. had two people scream in my face and on top of it the boss chewed me out. i need a new job everyone please pray i can find one

11-17-2008

well today went pretty well I got my grade on my midterm project and i got a B WOOOT. I have been working my way thru some struggles but have found that by Praying Reading my scripts and "Choosing to be happy" I am making it thru this ok ill post some new pics and keep u informed on wats going on in the next couple of days. well untill latter.

joey

Pictures

Ok so I know there are only a few pictures on here I will get more on latter

This is a pic from my very first Temple trip. It was an amazing day! I was able to go through 3 sets of Baptisms. Pictured here are left to right Char, ME, Tara Jo, Trina, and Karen Dee, some of the best Sister Missionaries out there.

Me and Tara Jo

Ok so I know I know it has been a long time for these pics to come up but this is when Tara Jo came back the week after going home from her mission

Insurance

Well I went to get an idea of what my car insurance is gonna cost and it turns out it is only gonna cost me 50 dollars a month. WOOOOOT!!!!

A Poem

Why?

by

j Cichon

As I sit and ponder my journey her i look back and wonder WHY? were my eyes blinded from the truth? Was it to prepare me was it my own arogance that kept me secluded from where i needed to be.

The blessings I have are to grand to fathom and yet the smallest thing could trip me up, but yet I stand firm and try to keep my eyes on the prize. The enemy tries to keep me dismayed and full of guilt and uses that to get in but I remind him of the Atonement and Heavenly fathers plan, and remind him that he will fail.

Oh to have the knowledge that I have now but be a kid again, but the real question, Would I have been Ready? Would I have seen the truth and could I stand her and testify to the TRUTH and POWER that my LORD AND MASTER possesss.

To those who know not the truth I say to you "if I be wrong what do I have to Gain but if I be right what do you have to lose?"

My dark is made light! My Diffacult is made easy! My sorrow becomes JOY! and my Confusion becomes Truth, all in the hands of my Saviour.


AMEN

My Story

Well to truly understand how I got here you have to start from the begining.
I was born into a Catholic home and raised that way till my mom moved out of my grandparents home, then we tried the Lutheren Church. We went to that church for quite awhile. My mom started dating my now step-father whom to be quite honest I could not and sometims still cannot stand. So when that happended church went out the door. I found this little church in the town i lived it and i liked it but that didn't last because a girl I was datng that was a member made up stories about how I had threatend to kill her, to be quite blunt I am not that kind of guy. One day after school when I was in highschool I came home to find my grandfather(my step fathers dad) dead. I tried to revive him but to no good. From then on ther till about the age of 20 i hatd God and wanted nothing to do with Him. I filled my time with going out with random girls, smoking, and drinking way too much. I then found this church which was a evangelical church and was baptised into it but I still went on with my hedanist lifestyle.

Ok, fast foward about 5 years. I am now 25 and I am in college again. I am siting in the commens area of the school putzing with my laptop. This weird girl comes up sits next to me and says "ohhhh, a new toy can I play" I thought she was cute so I said yes. Every week from there on we would see each other every Tuesday and hang out and talk.

One day she says "If I give you a book will you read it", I didn't know any better so i said sure. She hands me a Book of Mormon, I thought ya sure like Im going to read this. I took it and went home and let it collect dust under my beed for a week. The next week she comes up to me and says "Hey, you read the book?" "nope" I answered. She then says looking very hurt "Well I invited the Sisters to meet with you" I looked at her and said "Why would you do that? Did I show any intrest in YOUR CHURCH AT ALL NO NO NO." Even after that I still agreed to meet them.

Now let me say this remember I was raised most of my life as a Roman Catholic so when I heard sisters what did I think righhhht little old ladies in habits and a yard stick. So at 2 pm in walks these two beautifull young girls Sister Wiser and Sister Redford. I was like whoah slow down these are the Sisters. The first meeting was just getting to know each other and Of course I was trying to impress these young girls so I showed them how much about "GOD" I actually knew. But I still wasent convinced. So next week we started the disscussions. A week after that I started going to church with Sarah(sorry you know her as the Weird girl). I have to admit I liked it it was fun.

Now the ahaaa Moment we (the Sisters and I now with Sister Redford and Sister Christansen) were disscussing repentance. I was siting there and it hit me I said " I am such a Fraud." Sister Redford gave me her pattented "what" look and i reaped it "I am such a Fraud, I have been living my life and saying how much of a Christian I was" Right then and there I knew it was all True.

So what was the next step I set a baptism date for Jan 27th, the next week I was confirmed, the week after that ordained as a priest in the Aaronic Priesthood. Then a strange thing happended. I was sitting reading my Scriptures and a friend acme up and said " whats that" I told him they were my scriptures and that I was just studying. He then said "who are those two girls you meet with" I told him they were the sisters and explained what that was. He asked me if he could join us and I said sure not thinking anything of it. So he started taking the disscussions. and set a baptism date.

Throughout this journey i have learned many things and have come across some of the most amazing people.

I do not know where i would be without Sarah and Bre my loving sisters who helped see the true GOD, Jeani and sis wiser, and Char who taught and guided me along the road and to this day are there for me and all of my Ward family i love u all.

Things about me

1. My biggest fear--- being alone and not making a difference

2. My Greatest achievement-- Finding the truth

3 My life in a nut shell --- thought out and blessed by the one and true creator

4. my weakness --- taking help when it is givin, and have complete confidence in myself sometimes

5. my strengths --- belong to Heavenly Father.

6. my friends and family ---- my world.

7. the three people who have meant the world to me through my journey--- sarah gibbons Brother Ramsell, and Jeani Redford

8. things i do not miss ---- Drinking, the few relationships that were wastes of time, and the not knowing the truth

9. things i could never live without ---- My testimony, my scriptures, and my family.

10. future goals --- Serve a mission, get married, return to Heavenly father with honor

First Try

OK so I figured I would actually do something with this blog I created. It has been a long time since my baptism now, and I have had some struggles and many victories. It seems now that everything is starting to fall into place finally. I am currently working on the person I know Heavenly Father wants me to be. I can see now what it takes to make it day to day. There is a talk I read today by President Uchtdorf about hope that I read today and it makes me understand things a little better. well until we talk again

Joey

Baptism